The situation came to a head in the spring of 2010 during the divorce trial of her then-boyfriend, Antwaun Cook, with allegations and accusations of home-wrecking, pregnancy and sex tapes. 9, 2010, when Fantasia attempted suicide by downing a bottle of aspirin. Her personal rebuilding began when she channeled that pain into her first Grammy-winning song, "Bittersweet" in 2011, but that was just the start of the healing process.
Daily affirmations posted on her mirror -- "You are strong," "You are wise" -- and a copy of self-help bible keep her grounded today.
The brief courtship was intense, fulfilling -- and celibate; they didn't consummate the relationship until their wedding night, she confides. I was getting ready to go on the road, and he got on his knees and said, ' Can I pray for you?
I just want to cover for you down the road.' In the time I'd been fasting from relationships, I asked God for someone to pray for me -- someone that could cover me and my kids [Dallas, 4, and Zion, 14] and be the man of the house.
Hitting that low point, she says, "put me in a place where I know what I do and don't want, musically.
"What's more important is hitting the streets to say, ' Hey, we have to do things better.' " She recalls a recent drive through Charlotte when she and Taylor spotted a group of teenage boys fighting, and she insisted they stop the car. "I started speaking, and one of the guys says, ' Oh, it's Fantasia!
That's when I knew." A year later, she says she's never felt stronger.
Maybe it's finally having her personal life on terra firma that has Fantasia focusing on the wider world.
When her initial producer ("I'm not naming names," she says) didn't agree with her vision, she scrapped his demos and moved on.
Inspired by her role in the jazzy Broadway revue , she found a musical partner with Fair.